As I'd probably said before, readjustment and culture shock is coming in waves.  First it was the weather, then it was the hurry up attitude of everyone here in the States.  Then, realizing that my relationships had changed despite my best efforts to keep in touch, and then realizing that with some friends you can just pick up right where you left off.  Lately, it's the whole speaking English thing (I'm not so much thinking in Spanish anymore but I just can't think in English that quickly...earlier today I told my dad to "up" the window!) and feeling like a fish out of water.  I feel like I've missed SO MUCH during the two years I was away, not only in my family's and friends' lives, but I feel so behind technology-wise and pop-culture-wise too.  I got an mp3 player for Christmas and downloaded a bunch of Spanish songs because I don't know any of the new songs and still need that little piece of El Salvador with me.  Same goes for my cell phone.  My ringback tone and ringtone are both Spanish songs that remind me of life alla.  And I just don't know how to act sometimes...I feel like I'm kinda bumbling about, but I don't really fit in.  I need to eventually find a job, but the thought of job searching or making any kind of decision like that, terrifies me.  So right now, I'm just chilling, trying to catch up on what I missed while I was gone, and taking life one step at a time.  I do know that I will NOT be leaving the country for any extended length of time anytime soon.